Sail Away.

i've tried to stay away i really have but i want to write.... someone asked me about whether i resented amber on formspring. i choked for a sec but i knew the answer... i don't... she's making him happy. thats all i want now i think. that he just be happy. what more can i ask? i'm not angry any more, i was to begin with and yeah i'm still a liitle tender about the whole thing, i still can't say his name without the pangs in my chest, but he doesn't mean the same things he used too. he was bad for me that i have realised. i was a shell with him, i wasn't a person more whats left.... oh well... it doesn't matter now. it's old news. i was a different person so i've managed to distance myself from the whole thing... doesn't feel like it happened to me.... on other points i've been a little silly again... not good. i don't even know what it thats hurting so much lately.... wish i could figure it out. or is it just one of my moods? who knows.... who cares.... i'm a little happier today :)