Sail Away.

My heart feels like it's breaking, my chest physically aches. I want to cry so much but the tears just won't come yet. I can't breath, I feel like I'm choking. The panic is sitting in my stomach, writhing and twisting. I feel sick. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I don't even know what's brought it on this time. I'm so tired. Yet I can't face seeing him in my dreams again. He's gone yet he's here in my head. I'm so scared. 20 something hours in 12 days. I'm just so tired.